Love is hard, reality hurts
I can say i finally understand

Goodbye love




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I feel too awful. Its time to stop

5:14 PM
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Actually the date/time now is 30th April '06 14:39, but in order for the happy birthday to be valid i just changed the date la. Anyhows, we had dinner at Brewerks last night and again we ordered the tower of beer. 2 towers. :) The food there was alright and i think we were the noisiest la. God knows what made us do the YUMMMM SENGGG thing. :X

Too many details last night to be told here. Just hope that dear joanne enjoyed her big night. Oh yes, im so proud i did french braids for myself last night. Its been really long since i did it for myself. Plus, i did it for ziying after that when we met up. Im so smart right. hahaha.

I so know i got drunk last night. Im so lousy. 3 glasses and im down. I remember running after yongqi till my braids came loose, losing one of my heels near the escalator and after that trying hard to wear it back, almost banging into the mrt doors (from what i read from ziyings blog), sleeping on the floor when i got home unchanged and everything and how i slept abit and woke up to change and slept abit more and woke up again to remove my make up.


But somehow, i still love boozing.

11:59 PM
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My head hurts so much since yesterday. Ouch. But i still gotta go paint my nails later. & tomorrows joannes 18th birthday. :))

Im really having this crazy bag fetish now. Okayes, i promise myself i'll get myself (at least one) a Balenciaga, Chloe Paddington and Marc Jacobs Stam before i reach 3o. Thats my goal. & i'll save up for a dior handbag too. I better start saving up now. Hahaha.

So pretty, i love. <33

I think the white shorts i ordered from asos is OOS. I AM SO SUPER UPSET. hmph.

11:23 PM
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1:01 PM
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Today i missed a train so I went school alone. In the train, i could see the sun so bright, but my hands felt so cold. My heart too, I wonder why. Perhaps this time its for real. Schools so short today. I wish i have a job!

And now, im home at 2pm. Everyone's out working or with their love. Haha. Okayes, im in love with my carebear. Thats why im home. I took a super long route home after going to the post office. I passed by the playground that has been there since 17 years ago. Or maybe even longer than that. Then i remembered me playing there with my neighbour when we were young. I walked around the neighbourhood and finally went to open my letter-box.

Its raining so heavily & the sky is dark. It makes my heart hurts even more. It makes me feel more lonely than ever.

2:18 PM
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My life is screwed up. Because of you.


Goodnight diary.
Lifes a bitch. And i'll never never get over it.

10:18 PM

Another lesson learnt today. Dont ever leave your handphone on the table in public :) I was so freaking scared today, thought that someone took my phone in Carl's Jr. Wth! Cause i knew i left it on the table when i went to place my order. Lucky Dylan, hinhan & kelvin took the phone. Or else, it might have really been taken by someone else.

Great. I learn something new everyday.

9:35 PM
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And so i thot my friday was gone just like that when i reached home at 1pm. Haha, but luckily joanne called me up and we decided to go clarke quay for some drinks.

The night was great. Being "invited" into the private event at Indochine and getting free wine. Haha. Plus, we even had our photo taken and printed out for us. Loads and loads of caucasians, sweet and i were so lucky right? :) Okayes, two lessons learnt last night. & i'll keep them in mind. I swear i dint down the wine too quickly. Ha. At least i THINK i dint.

Anyhows, we headed over to Brewerks after that with lim then yx and kelvin joined us after that. AH! Im so sad i missed out on that tower of beer. I really really shouldnt have taken that 2nd glass at Indochine. I ended up drinking iced water at Brewerks and almost puked. Luckily i dint have to send kelvin home la, his face was like so damn red i was so afraid he would fall anytime. Haha.

Woke up today at 1pm like wth. Dilly dally-ed and met ed at around 3pm. We headed over to town and i cant believe i bought something AGAIN. Oh please, shoot me. Went to look for joanne and then went down to ms and met up with ed's friends. Im so freakin tired and i swear ed is my jinx. Everytime i go out with him, my heels will kill my feet. It dint even hurt a teeny bit when i went out with sweet last night.

Peektures from the night before.

Goodnight lovelies.

12:29 AM
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Aw. Im so tired and giddy, but at least im back home and i dint get scolded. Ha ha. Today was fun, but i dont feel so good. Tata!

12:20 AM
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1:24 PM

I think i have too many other important things in my life to care about than my super LOVELY classmates. So, i shall not mention them for the time being.

I woke up today at 9.20am when my class starts at 10am. What a great way to start my day. So i got myself prepared in less than 10 mins and went to take a train. Ha ha. & met kelvin in the train who is late too. So we both ended up being late for lecture but i think the blur lecturer dint know it. My personal tutor is a funny man though, i like him as a tutor. But he wants us to hand in a one page essay by wed. Wth. Thursday is my fave day of the week cause theres only one tutorial and the rest are all lectures! This simply means spending time with my sweethearts from '07 which means that i am HAPPY. The bitches all went to eat snow ice today again. Haha. I keep having this craving for it. I just feel loved eating it.



My star.
its 12am and u havent called. But it doesnt matter anyway, cause i know things aint gonna get better even if u called. I really hate those times when i mention problems to u and u change topic straight away as though i dint even say it at all in the first place. What i need is an answer not ignorance.
But i'll just pretend u're here, till i feel good enough.

11:42 PM

11:19 PM
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The nerd peeps, they are pissing me off too much.

I think i'll just do what im supposed to do - collect funds when there are new notes to buy, & that bunch of nerds jolly well go buy on their own. I collect money from them, they are unhappy. I break down the calculation for the funds to them, they also unhappy. Fugly asses. I cant believe they dont even wanna buy the notes. Alright, dont go lectures then. Dont study also and dont blame me for not buying notes for YOU.


Yours truly,
The Bitch

2:10 PM
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Todays the second day of school and i already feel stressed enough to make me feel i wanna opt out of tourism. Im serious. Cause this bunch of girls in my class - Total Nerds. We used to think bh was like mugger last time, but now i really know how a real mugger works. Ha ha ha. I dont think my laid back character is suitable for this course. I thot tourism was like relaxing although it was the most sought after course. But who knows, i ended up with such classmates. Stress just kills my productivity even more.

Two things to be happy about today.

1. My necklace arrived! & i love it to bits
2. I had snow ice with kelvin and eileen today.

School has been such a chore ever since '07 splitted. I feel so upset with my class.

10:49 PM
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I just hopped over to joannes blog and saw the pics from the chalet :) Ah, sweet memories. & im so bored im doing a 2nd blog entry cause i have nothing to do. I think i'll just go paint my nails after this.

Im so dreading school tmr. I just wanna whine and whine till i get sick and shut up. I hate one of my female lecturers. I hope she stops "shh-ing" people, it really really gets on my nerves. Just like that fellow lecture-mate who kept doing it last sem. I wanna roll my eyes at the lecturer over and over again! Oh please, she cant be that naive to think that people can actually listen to her and not talk at all for one entire hour! I bet she cant do it too. tsktsk. Shes creating even more interruption by "shh-ing" her students. & i dont give a damn cause i still continued talking to yingling. *rolls eyes*

& my cousin cropped her hair short. Prettier, definitely :) Im glad i had her to talk to at my uncles 21st birthday chalet on Sunday. loves.

9:57 PM
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Im so freaking tired today. The new faces in my class aint pleasing me at all. I just get turned off at the sight of them :( I think i miss '07 too much. School is so awful!

Happiest Moment of the Day:

Walking into MLT10 & seeing all the familiar faces in the exact same seats, as though it was last sem. smile :)

I went shopping after school with some of the '07 peeps or rather bitches (except yixiang & hh). I bought another top today! I really gotta stop. Eileen got me a cute bear pen from Night Safari. Oh my god, its so lovely & sweet of her. haha. Yay.

8:05 PM
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10:51 PM
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I just woke up.
Aights. I sure am making use of this last chance to sleep in LATE.

3:49 PM
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I think shopping has made me mad somehow. I am so super upset today cause i went down to town and i DINT GET A SINGLE THING. Its not even because theres nothing to buy. In fact, theres plenty but i cant. Ed is becoming so strict that he stops me from buying anything at all. & even worse, hes going to stop buying things for me. Double upsetting. :((((

Im so pissed at him and i wanna cry.

Schools starting and I havent got a new pencil case and school bag. I really dont wanna bring the faux balenciaga to school cause i dont wanna spoil it. & im pretty sure the bag i bought online wont be coming so soon. Im afraid of going to school cause i have no idea what i wanna wear. hmph. Everything sucks.

9:45 PM
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school is hate :(

12:32 AM
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4:12 PM
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We watched Ice Age 2 today & its freakin hilarious. Haha. & i ate Pepper Lunch at 10pm. We were like their last customers for the day.

Im really broke beyond description.

12:52 AM
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12:54 PM
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2:04 AM
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4:47 PM
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10:15 PM
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So, i spent the whole of yesterday squirming in my bed trying to make myself sleep and breaking out in cold sweat. It was another one of those times when cramps hit me so badly i couldnt walk, sleep and make me wanna cry. & i dint go out as planned which sucks but if i went out, i was sure to black out and it would suck even more.

Today is no better.
I really really really realky wanna go tanning and shopping. Please?

2:42 PM
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Recently my room's been invaded by tiny ants and its irritating me so much that i use my fingers to squash them. I dont usually do that cause your fingers will stink, as told to me by my tuition teacher when i was in primary school. They are everywhere, those bloody ants. I suspect some are hiding somewhere in my lappie cause i see one or two crawling across the screen every now and then. Its freaking me out. & i dont eat in my room anymore since so long ago. I wonder how the ants survive. I have been seeing lizards around these few days too. yucks. I hope its not cockroaches next.

stomach cramp decided to come in today and im feeling terrible.
what a bad day.

1:19 PM
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I think it will be a lil too small to see the captions. But i cant be bothered. Still, u can click on it to see a bigger pic.

'Cause i had a really tiring day. Going to town and then to eds house for Underworld 2: Evolution. Sadly i fell asleep at the most exciting part near the ending. =(


Sweets coming tmr which's good. I need someone to talk to me.

10:42 PM
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10:28 PM
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We went down to the airport today for the Popeye Chicken finally. The chickens good. So much better than KFC's. Its like so tender and juicy & their fries are nice too. But the mashed potatoes a lil too extraordinary for my liking. Met joanne there cos she had the cya thingy. Ha ha. We walked around the airport after that but it got so boring we went to city hall instead. After which, we went esplanade. I met this really horrid group of middle aged CHINA people ogling at a few caucasians. Argh, like what the fuck?! It was so disgusting i tell u. They dont have the decency to take a look in the mirror. And still dare to say so loud in public, "see leh see leh". No sense of shame. Please for gods sake, they can be old enough to be their dads. See what i say bout china people? Sucks totally.

I feel so sleepy today prolly too much time was spent on the train to and fro changi.
Goodnight diary.

11:52 PM
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Why do i feel like crying now. I was so happy just now. I know what im doing is just so wrong. I feel too confused. Im so silly. I cant make up my mind & its so freaking making me afraid. Bring me to my senses, somebody.

I wish time would stop. If so, pls stop when i was still up there mid air. 'cause it was so peaceful & beautiful.

i know, i know.
im so selfish

1:45 AM

Today is a very special Sunday. 'Cause i took a cable car ride & went to The Altivo. A very nice place plus, I was so excited bout getting on a cable car ride! Had drinks and then went back to Harbourfront for pizza. No pictures on the cable car though , 'cause i dint wanna seem like some kuku who never went on a cable car before. & it was so dark. Damn, i should have taken at least one photo. Its been ages since i last went on a cable car.

Tonight was wonderful & thank you :)
Im so happy.

11:34 PM
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Im feeling so cranky & upset with everything. I hope the taiwan shoes spree opens quickly so i can get my heels. I just bought a necklace for freaking 36bucks online yesterday. & i do hope it turns out nice, its a personalised name necklace! I have no money if not i would get the 14k gold one which costs more than 100bucks. :( & im selling away the aero top with tags that i just got.

& one more thing i find it so weird last night.

For EXAMPLE:
Its like me going online to view a china person's profile. Furthermore, i know this person eats dogs and whatever he can get his hands on. Weird? Ironic? whatever. It just makes me feel uneasy. Okayes, u dont know what im talking bout.

ed is so fickle minded that he decided to call & ask if we are still going to eat. He was the one who called the date off. I dont know what to do anymore. Everythings confusing me so much.

3:40 PM
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The trip to the airport for popeye chicken has been cancelled :(

argh

3:06 PM
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let's run off to the makebelieve world




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