Saturday, March 31
The supposedly ideal friday night.. Chilling out at Timbre but that place is close to being horrible. The outdoor setting definitely sucks. I mean, bird shit is falling down from the trees! & not to mention the tables are cramped, disorganised, wet/uneven floors and the waiters dont seem to understand english. The lighting is also sort of pathetic. They should look at rouge outdoors. Outdoors without compromising on the hygiene factor. The first time a bird shitted on me for the past 18 years. & twice in a night. omfgzzzz. whatever, at least we changed to a better seat after that. But the band, Timmy is really good and the drummer is cute so is the lead singer. Their pizzas are really nice. All else sucks. They shouldnt charge for their service when they gave us a lousy seat, forgot to give us the cheese & serviettes and then taking ages to come serve us. We were definitely not the only ones who werent happy.
But okay la, good pizza and good music. it was good altogether. Compared to MoS last sat night, i just dint feel too high that night. Being too unsure and then so unhappy due to some personal issues. Schools starting in less than 20 days. I hope the 07 people can get together for one more party night?! please.. (dont pretend never see cause i bold this!)
okay tata.
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Tuesday, March 27
what makes me happy for tonight.
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Saturday, March 24
this is so cool, and kinda true.
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Sunday, March 18
My sis and me made a very sudden decision to head down to Island Creamery today. Yay to icecream on hot days. Its bad enough that my body cant take the air con right now in this stupid weather of Singapore, cause im bloody sick again. We took a fairly long bus ride down (and which i hate very much) and tried the nasi lemak at the adam road hawker. Very delishious. We had the reverso, and nutella today and the same old horlicks flavour. These three scoops were too heavy and creamy for both of us, my heart started beating so quickly after that. A pity they didnt have the tiger beer sorbet today, i wanted to try it so badly. They should have a whiskey flavoured one. I wished i was in the cam whoring mood today, so we could get our picture printed out, decorated nicely and then pinned on the wall. They'll be having the pineapple tart flavour next week(i like!). Will someone go with me next week please... ...
I finally found a Royce chocolate store at suntec! Im so excited. My favouritest chocolate.
Ya, i hear the stupid fats calling me.
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Thursday, March 15
I think some people really dont have the brains and the EQ. Because, i am really so damn fucking angry for once about this matter.
HELLO! i am trying damn hard to go out in peace after staying home for like one bloody week. For that one bloody week, you bunch of people have been hanging out with him for that one week already okay! Can i at least go out in peace? Compared to that damn one week u people have, i only have one day (or rather, 6 hours). Its just basic courtesy that u people dont know about. I doubt your EQ level even hits 10. Fucking hell.
People just dont understand the simplest thing.
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Tuesday, March 13
I went to the doctor's today. Its the first time i stepped out of my days for the past 4 days?
this is pathetic, and definitely so not sandra.
Yixiang calls for ladies night this week. In fact i am dying to go, but i think my body will just give way. Or rather my limbs. I even had difficulty going to the clinic today.
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Sunday, March 11
Life has dropped to another type of rock bottom now that im idling around everyday. I've never wished this much to have a job or to go back to school. Maybe i should really go look at the newspapers tmr. But i want an office job that pays $10 per hour, has nice comfy seats, able to do online shopping and msn-ing, and also only need to pick up phone calls. ha ha. This is not impossible, because there is really such a job. Its just that im not lucky enough cause they arent hiring people now.
Maybe its true i havent been giving myself a proper rest, mentally. But I havent been thinking alot lately, have resigned to fate on certain matters and trying hard to let myself go from... ... myself. Other things are getting to me, its probably just the excessive free time that i have. It also mostly explains why i've been having really crappy dreams and like 2 in a day, cause i sleep that much. I dont like to dream of ending my own life, it freaks me out so bad. Its as though something bad is calling out.
On top of all these already bad happenings, my nose has bled for 3 days already. Its fucking pissing me off. Life is horrible.
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Monday, March 5
Life seems to hold a different meaning altogether now. No doubt that life changed alot for me the past 2 years. From being a really simple girl with fairytale dreams to a very cynical person, learning that reality is totally opposite in the hardest possible ways. I went through a lot of disappointments, so much that i dont know what to expect of the world anymore. At times, it felt like the whole world was about to turn its back on me and everything around were just lies and betrayals. It felt like the most unfortunate events had to happen in my life, making everything different from what i had planned years ago. Naturally, something evil seemed to brew within me. Finding it exceptionally hard to trust anyone, having a void inside me which i can never seem to fill up completely.
Of course, i had my fair share of happiness. Be it true happiness, or something false just to fill up that void within me. I had good friends who stood by me at the worst times. Its true that what doesnt kill u make u stronger and thats what i am right now, even though the littlest things could pull at my heartstrings at certain times. One thing for sure, i can never be the same anymore.
To you, I could be so harsh as u say, and as i admit. Very often or perhaps everytime, i say words that hurt you or hurt myself so much. I wouldnt even believe the slightest things u say, or things u absolutely have no reasons to lie. But please understand, this is my only and last way of protecting myself from all those shit again. I could never see u in the same light again, & i could never feel the same way i did nor talk to u the same way i used to. Its just different now.
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Sunday, March 4
The thing is that when people grow up, they learn so much more that there is too much bad in this world. Too much bad, and too litte good people around. We all become too cynical.
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