Because people take away everything that u believed in for the longest time and the funniest jokes turns out that you are really the joke actually.

Because life is fucked up and this is a harsh world. Because my nights are far more scary than anyone of you. Because i've been hurt so much more by even the least suspecting people.

So now, why dont u tell me. am i to leave or to live?

9:51 PM
9 danced

Everything is like a cycle. A cycle i dont want to be in, but which i cant get out. The night is still the hardest to get by.

I count you to sleep instead of counting sheeps.

4:06 AM
2 danced

12:03 AM
0 danced

My fetish for heels is coming back.

11:07 PM
0 danced

Mambo nights are so not my thing. But the dance moves are amusing (in a good way) though, and it could be quite fun to stay for a couple of hours. A pity we didnt get to go phuture, so we went down to momo and stayed till early morning. It was so so so much better over there - good music. The crowd at zouk was crazyyyyy, and i dont even want to start talking about some stupid people there. Ah yes, it was a waste of money getting my pedicure done on monday 'cause its scratched now already.

Bitching at macs went on for hours till we finally left at 7am. Seriously, i think i am so going to die. for not getting enough sleep, breathing in too much smoke and drinking way too much.

Good Morning people.

9:02 AM
0 danced

Today, i finally woke up to a sunny day! :D

2:31 PM
0 danced

6 more days to Christmas. I wish i can kick it away, hide from it or sleep through this joyous season. Because i am really not in the mood and even christmas trees do not delight me the way it is supposed to. All i care right now is saving up enough money. Like, money please come to me. I shall dream of bills and coins tonight.

Nevertheless, christmas dinner was good. I super heartheartheart the present that joanne made for me. Its like so fucking sweet can. (sweetheart, i love u deepdeep) & many thanks to yunyun for her thoughtful present. :)

1:20 AM
0 danced

trying to put into words what i feel seems too difficult in such a situation. but i feel uneasy and sad, seeing the same people with different person, or different people with the same person. it happens to everyone i guess, no one stays the same forever.

:( no matter what, people always leave. for the better (or, not).

8:25 PM
1 danced

ah, i am so sick of some people who are so arrogant and full of themselves.

11:34 PM
0 danced

Oh yes, just in case.

To whichever nicey classmate whom picked me for gift exchange,

can i please NOT have chocolates? thankewwwww!
maybe cash will be great. wahaha!

lovelove,
san

1:15 AM
0 danced

I made my way down to ikea today. Eating meatballs, chicken wings and hotdog buns even though my throst hurts like hell. I think i will lose my voice soon. & thats because stupid edwin havent tried the meatballs and chicken wings and i HAD to let him try.

I got some new stuff for my room. some photoframes, boxes and pen holder, which i'll use it to put all my makeup brushes. Still, my room lacks of a place to keep all my accessories.

okay, now i need a haircut and pedicure.

10:22 PM
0 danced

I think i am so going mad already. Next week are the holidays and then the joyous-est x'mas is here. Two more days of horrible school to be done with, 2 more project deadlines, and then party the weekend away.


Its irritating to know that 2007 is nearing. Like freaking in less than a month. I feel sick about it. Somehow, i wonder why people are so goddamn happy about counting down to the next year. Every second thay count brings them one more second closer to death. & then, 2006 will be another year which i did not achieve anything much. Another year of which slipped past me so easily and meaninglessly. clinging on to people whom i should forget, crying in the nights where i should be sleeping soundly instead, not cherishing people who deserved so much more. Each year passes me and nothing has changed in my life. I dont feel like things have taken a turn for the better, but the number keeps on jumping. Im stuck in my own life while the world just keeps moving on. Im so afraid of new year.

I dont want a new year at all. New years are not fun, they just remind me of how useless i am.

3:15 PM
4 danced

yay, i finally thought it through and i am happier.

1:06 PM
0 danced

Its been going on for way too long. end it here, wont you?
If theres one thing u havent been doing, its letting me live.

cause every word(lie) u say, still pierces through my heart. & i rather u not say them at all.

11:56 PM

things are going downhill all of a sudden. and these few days havent been good. i dont think screaming into the phone is such a good idea anymore. it bothers only me eventually. random thoughts. looking at things, i dont think i will get my hands on your ps2 anytime soon. i dont even think i'll be talking to u or seeing u as much as last week. not that i care because i think u are so fucked up.

if eating chocolates at 2am kills, then im so dead. i wanna go out and get some photos taken. i am neglecting my coloursplash too much. x'mas decos are too lovely to miss. i have been wanting to go out and do some snapsnap since like forever. but then again, christmas will probably be plan-less and christmas doesnt feel christmasy without christmas trees. oh whatever.

this entry took me forever to finish, cause all of a sudden. i have difficulties expressing myself. enough of shitty nights. for now, i shall hide under the covers abit and seek some comfort in my carebear.

no more bright stars or forever.

2:54 AM
2 danced

I made plans for yesterday to pack my room, tidy up my notes abit, and read some financial management. But waking up at 2.30pm makes me wanna laze around even more. So i spent the day watching teevee & thinking when will i ever get to go to ikea for meatballs&hotdogbunnns, when i'll ever go on a proper shopping trip and then some pedicure or something. i need more clothes like usual. i've grown sick of more than half my wardrobe.

Of course, with the company of:

i love chocopie(s).

then today, im almost convinced that im stupid. going to school at 8am for 2 hours and then coming back home to sleep. and i missed my law tutorial again. starbucks at tampines mall after school with ed and his friend. i think im going to be sick of starbucks for now.

now, i really like the ljcut.

12:12 AM
0 danced

1) my head is spinning from the vodka, sexonthebeach, martini, and whisky.
2) but still, im sober enough. too sober in fact.
3) the night at attica was good nevertheless.

kays. goodnight now. i need to shower badly.


oh fuck la. 3) is a fucking lie. (okay fine, half a lie) & girlfriend, i like the song we sang all the way to the freaking toilet we went 3 times. & next time, include me in your backup plan.

5:07 AM
2 danced

in what sense, why and what?

9:46 PM
0 danced

10:22 PM
0 danced

11:03 PM
0 danced

let's run off to the makebelieve world




i like mysteries, late nights out, love, fashion, style, music, pictures & magic.



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