rouged portraits

I spent my saturday so happily today. Caught the show John Tucker with steven, my nice colleague and then met up with yongqi for some retail therapy. The show's nice, funny and sexy(?) & had my dinner at sakae. ohgreat. But i am so sorry i was late today and he had to wait for me with a big brolly at the station :X

The best part was shopping and i am so proud of myself cause i managed to spend like $ XXX (ohmygod, joanne dont kill me). I felt so upset for the past 3 days for going home empty handed after 2 days of walking in town.

same seats, different person

11:13 PM
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im sorry

12:59 AM
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Car rides make me emo. Especially when love songs seem to play endlessly. Why do i feel so sad watching the world?

Ina a nutshell, my lifes been pretty much of town, car rides and school which i happen to hate so much. I end up sleeping in most of my tutorials and thats what i need least this sem. Make my heart go back on the right track please <3

10:31 PM
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School has started and lifes becoming a routine again. I woke up late on the first day of school and missed the very first tutorial for this sem. But everyday's so much more fun and really, im happier now. At least, i dont find myself crying late at night thinking what went wrong. This time, im moving on.

Oh ITS GREAT TO FEEL HAPPYYYYYY! :D

But i still want to know that u are safe and happy no matter what u do, living your life good and all. Cause, u were still someone i loved very much. & hopefully, one day we will be able to sit down and talk like we used to. I wish to hear u laugh again, just like the very first time we got together.

12:03 AM
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People dont know me.
I dont even think i know myself.

is that why life is getting harder each day?

1:10 AM
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My legs are breaking, feet is aching & my throat feels swollen(?) The worst thing that can happen right now is work.

But hinhan made my day today! He brought me two slices of lovely cakes when he came down. nice :) i like. thanks alot.

11:54 PM
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i still feel uneasy. very uneasy.

12:12 AM
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I cant remember half of the things i did last night. But i had super duper uber fun. hard core drinking. i love, always.

drink, dance and get high. this is all i want to do. i have a good mind to go on friday.

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go away. u are my worst nightmare. i'd love u to be my best friend.
but, u never learn to stop lying

9:45 PM
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I had way too much of u in my life.
Now that u are gone, where can i hide everything about us?

Love itself is a huge lie.

5:14 PM
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I dont know, but if i were to say anything it would be that i no longer know what is love. But i know, none of all these is love. They are just words, and promises which keeps me hanging on, carry expectations and yet wont be fulfilled.

anyways, chinaone is on this saturday. I am so happy weekend affairs are here again :D

p.s Why doesnt anyone believe im a thrifty person?

10:42 PM
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Ookay, so i went out last evening which was a totally last minute thing. Unfortunately, i had only less than 20 bucks left and i am unable to buy anything. Caught The devil wears Prada at the grand cathay cinema and it was really grand. Cool. I went crazy in the show though, the lovely winter clothing, designer bags and really high heels. I almost wished i was there. But it all comes with a price, all the fame and wealth. People get so lonely, i guess.

I shopped around, get tempted to buy, made a mental note of what im going to get and i might be going down again today. Might. I wonder if i should get that pair of pazzion heels :X and splurge more on make up? I hate it when i spend.

12:00 PM
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Its the 4th today, I know this date has lost its meaning so long ago and no one remembers it anyway. But to make things worse, today had to be such a bad day and i am so so so in a fucking bad mood.

I am supposed to be working today as written in the roster but in actual fact, its my off day. SO obviously i knew it only when i reached and after much commotion and confusion, the fucking BITCH confirmed that i didnt have to work. & it is HER fault that she did not plan the roster correctly, and it is HER who forbid me to ask her work related matters when she is off. Thats why i didnt even bothered to disturb her yesterday. When she realised it was her fault toay, she did not even bother to talk to me personally and aplogised for her mistake. IT SO SO SO SO RIDICULOUSLY HER FAULT and shes still so fucking rude.

Seriously, I am getting more and more unhappy each day at work. *--------* is a major reason why im seriously thinking of quitting. We have a mutual dislike for each other. All i know was i did nothing wrong exactly except for wearing the wrong footwear to work on the first day and it wasnt her business anyway. Before i even knew it, her behaviour towards me was as though i stole her boyfriend. Her unnecessary complaint about me not wanting to serve cust was the worst. Its as though she could almost read my mind. & its not as though shes such an oh-so-responsible person. If she feels that i look like a bimbo and does not know anything bout working in the retail line, i would so appreciate if she told me directly and ask me to quit. okay whatever, shes a bitch. Period.

Furthermore, i was freaked out by an indian man when i was gonna open the letterbox and i was so bloody scared that i spoke nothing but kept shaking my head in response to everything he said.
Okay, im gonna watch tv.

11:51 AM
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I am so super shagged for the past two days simply cause im back to work at gstar. Apparently, my new uniform sucks totally and i am (most likely) going to get myself a pair of jeans! :D I know i am so much like a spendthrift and theres no need to get a pair but still.. its gstar. The only thing is the destructed patches which makes it look abit erm.. over-punkish.

& i am going to work for so many many days now i regret going back cause i dont have time to stay home and watch shows. Cause recently i realise im such a homebody and i really like lazing around at home muching on junkies and watching shows. But anyway, i fisgured i will be bored at home everyday with only loneliness as my friend. blah. so much for an interesting life and i see weekend affairs slipping away from me.

But if i ever quit, kar promised he will explore the whole of s'pore with me every single day so i'll bear that in mind : )

LOVELOVE,
san

10:30 PM
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