i am 18. i have too many people to cherish, too many dreams to catch, too many late nights to stay up, too many iloveu's to say, too many regrets to take back, too many insecurities, too many reminisces and too many people i dont want to let go.
but the only thing im short of is time.
I got my lovely presents from 07 today. & i could say i LOVE it alot, even though i didnt expected it. It makes it much of a lovely surprise just the way i like it. DEAREST BESTEST LOVELIEST 07, THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS! :D Todays been much of a boring day, im still not exactly in the mood for school. Headache didnt make it easier for me since i had to help my cousin with her grad night tmr, which leaves us no more than 10 mins to prepare and go out for the dinner.
Dinner was spent bitching around abit and thats when i realised we are really psychos. As in seriously, give us a few secs and we could come up with really interesting but sickeningly sick ways to torture people. Somehow, we got to the topic of the girl who was beaten up and half-stripped for seducing someone else's boyfriend. We wondered what we would have done if someone had taken our love away. Both of them decided it would be the guy's loss and they most probably wouldnt do anything. But for me, i wasnt sure what i'd do. Betrayal was something i never handled well. The thought of losing to someone whom i felt inferior to me, i just have to prove i'll win. Call me egoistic, i probably am in this case.
These chats have just made me realise that all these while, i knew clearly what i believed in and what i did not believe in. It was like a hard slap on the face, knowing its self denial trying to protect u for who u were the first time we met. But i did forget to remind myself, that people do change. & what i saw, did not make things better.
i still think its better to be loved, lover?
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