Monday, March 5
Life seems to hold a different meaning altogether now. No doubt that life changed alot for me the past 2 years. From being a really simple girl with fairytale dreams to a very cynical person, learning that reality is totally opposite in the hardest possible ways. I went through a lot of disappointments, so much that i dont know what to expect of the world anymore. At times, it felt like the whole world was about to turn its back on me and everything around were just lies and betrayals. It felt like the most unfortunate events had to happen in my life, making everything different from what i had planned years ago. Naturally, something evil seemed to brew within me. Finding it exceptionally hard to trust anyone, having a void inside me which i can never seem to fill up completely.
Of course, i had my fair share of happiness. Be it true happiness, or something false just to fill up that void within me. I had good friends who stood by me at the worst times. Its true that what doesnt kill u make u stronger and thats what i am right now, even though the littlest things could pull at my heartstrings at certain times. One thing for sure, i can never be the same anymore.
To you, I could be so harsh as u say, and as i admit. Very often or perhaps everytime, i say words that hurt you or hurt myself so much. I wouldnt even believe the slightest things u say, or things u absolutely have no reasons to lie. But please understand, this is my only and last way of protecting myself from all those shit again. I could never see u in the same light again, & i could never feel the same way i did nor talk to u the same way i used to. Its just different now.
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save your soul, let yourself go.
why bother?
the grass is greener on the other side.
learn to let yourself go.
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why bother?
the grass is greener on the other side.
learn to let yourself go.
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